Graduate 2019

It's been a while. I now graduated and preparing for board exams. I may have deleted my past facebook accounts and some tweets from twitter I almost forgot that I have my past memories here written on my blog. I graduated 2012 in highschool and now I just graduated from college. I feel old already. But not because of age, but because I want to be successful immediately, I want to have life now. I'm nowhere to go, I don't have work I'm still thinking if I should proceed to medschool but I want to have my own life now. I want to have my own savings so I can use my own money to buy my own personal things. But really, I have to wait little longer. Maybe just work hard, time will come. Looking back I had many experiences and some memories that are written here. I'm reading it while thinking "wow, that's me I had thoughts like that before." Now, I'm still waiting for the next memories that will be stored here.

One Year MVCian

Hi Web!

Long time no write. I'm back here at Cagayan de Oro. Though my purpose is only to visit and have vacation. Next week, I'll be back for school. Last month was a rush month, a very busy time that I barely had time to think about vacation. But even though I'm busy, I enjoyed my stay because of Advent Philomels and Amis Fideles. This choir has helped me a lot these past months. I'm not entirely into this thing at first. I like to have choir and I like to have ministry especially in music. But, my stay in MVC is not comfortable at first. During my first year in MVC, I'm trying to figure out if I have my friends that can help me feel that I'm here at the right place.

I'm afraid at first to have friends. I feel out of place sometimes, because I'm new and I'm not like them. They are here in Mindanao since their childhood, while me, my friends are in Luzon. I feel like I'm invading their territory and I think that I'm just dipping in their life.

These past month helped me a lot in dealing with it. Amis Fideles is a circle of friends which includes me and some students randomly picked from everywhere, but we started our friendship in a pansit canton party which made me happy. We became truly friends after that time. We gather sometimes, eating, and even going to ministry outside the school. Church hopping and even we have different singing groups we support each other.

Advent Philomels this summer had graduation concert and we had hectic practices and schedules, on of the reason why I didn't go home. But, during that time, I established firmer relationship with the group. Sir Bart arrived and we practiced with him. The seniors made us cry during the concert. I thought I wouldn't cry but, while singing 'Times of Your Life' I'm dealing with my emotions and I succeeded in holding back my tears, but the video still made me cry. I'll be missing them.I'm thankful for the group. I'm happy I become an AP. Lastly, I'm thankful that I became her friend. My worries had gone, my insecurities fall and I feel good to be closed with her.

Thank God for having me here at Mindanao. Here at MVC.

Leyte: Recovery from Yolanda

It's been two years since the Yolanda (international name: Haiyan) had brought sorrow for many Filipinos. For about 7,350 people are gone. Many lost everything, the houses was destroyed all the properties.

But now, the dramatic change is relieving, many would recover for 10 years, 2 years are good for the ones in Leyte. From the lots of investment and construction going on and the agricultural sector it is not impossible to see a new decent place. It is good to see the people continuing to recover from every typhoon.

Philippines really is a place that is prone to disasters like this, that's why we need to hold on to God who is willing to give us relief and he will never leave us.

Aldub: Eat Bulaga's Most Awaited Feature

Many people are really unto that Aldub something. I'm nor hater or a fan. I find it entertaining. I knew about the news in inquirer.net. They met each other and that was a great event. I'm just amazed. by it. :D Richard Aldens was awesome in some ways, I cant deny that he's handsome also, and Maine Mendoza, she's really beautiful and really simple. I like her from the start while she's doing her dubmash/vines. I'm not against them. No wonder they can really attract the attention of the viewers. Meanwhile, in the Philippines this is the trending topic. Eat Bulaga really did it.

But, aside from that, I also want to congratulate my ex crush Terrence Romeo and GILAS! XD for winning their game with Team USA. On the way to gooo! Good luck for the next game later with Taiwanese people. Speaking of Taiwan. That reporter named Jenny Yu? Hmm. I'm not bitter but, Why did she say that to Terrence? "Last question, Can I be your Juliet?" I was like. Whoah. Okay Stop, hahaha! If Eat Bulaga has Aldub. Now Jones Cup have this RomYu thing. People this days. :3

Take care! Thanks for reading. XD

Vacation Over

Web,

My hands still feel numb. I'm writing lately but, I think my hands are not yet ready for school again. But, I have to get ready, because I HAVE TO WRITE TOMORROW! Advanced semi finals for our Organic Chemistry. Exam. Exam. Back to quizzes again. But still, I'm on vacation mode. HAHA.

Okay Okay. Get ready now. ^_^ Another week. (just two days :3)

Dark and Concealed

Hey Web,

I'm currently feeling unease. I knew, she didn't like me. I thought she was also my friend. But no, she isn't like that in my impression. I don't understand either.

I think I'm back from being stupid. I'll only get hurt if I keep on doing this. Just like the old days. When I'm still approachable. When I like having many friends. I'd rather be isolated than having a lot of friends and make me look like a fool. I was their laughing stock. I was their clown. Because my personality looks like that. I'm even addressed as lesbian. I look like a boy. What can I do, I don't want to lose my friends.

But, I became like this. I realized that I was really a fool. If I have been more serious, more physically and mentally strong, I wouldn't have to experience that. I changed myself my personality, my looks, I become more conscious. I had my thoughts to be obscured.

I like this me. This is the better one.

Alexithymia

Dear Webbie!

Hi!

I've been having this experience. Maybe I'm inspired? I know what I've been everytime I took glance unto that thought I've been keeping on feeling that. I'm happy, satisfied, or thankful, I don't know if that would describe it.

Thankful though, that it helps me in some ways. Maybe, if I continue this I wouldn't miss anything and I'll gain something I do hope.

Greatly, I have to be happy. I know this helps.

Win over

Dear Web,

I remembered my last post here, (it was deleted though, crap me) I've been practicing my coldness at that time. I prefer to be alone. I never had intimate friends here. Even when I'm at AUP, I'm satisfied of being alone.

I could easily go to the cafeteria and eat alone. But here, I couldn't do that, they would label me as loner or different.

Maybe one of the reasons why as what I see in myself now, I'm diffident, or sometimes (frequently >_<) insecure. But I could conquer it, if I want to.

I have this current friend here that at first when I saw her, I feel intimidated I tried to approach her but afterwards, she approached my and initiate our closeness. My insecurity was gone. She is now my close friend. Or rather my only close friend, and I'm thankful for that. I directly saw how I conquered my weakness.

I hope not only to her. Because of some girls, I feel intimidated but I can't win to my fear because they have this "we-can't-be-close-aura". I don't know what to do.

I wan't to. I really want to.

New week

Magandang araw! Web,

Another week has passed. Done with my exams. At last. I could breathe. :D

Maybe now I'll just sleep or browse internet then wash my clothes. :3

Geez. I would like to rest more and more haha. I feel so relieved~

Good day. ^_^

Unsafe world

Dear Web,

My best friend here told me that someone in our place back home got into an accident. I was very scared of the story. I seldom here this in reality. Never seen and got into that kind of accident. She got hit by a truck while riding a motor and here head got off her body..

I'm pursuing a medical course, and I'm aware that personally, I can see that kinds of bodies.

I don't want to see but, I have to conquer my fear. I am fully aware of that. I hope I could get over it. And I hope that wouldn't happen to anyone, especially to my friends.

As my mom told us, that we just have to pray always. Be careful.

-Zz

Hello

Hi! Webbie,

I'm back! Still have one exam tomorrow though. I'm hungry haha.
Happy Sabbath. I've been doing nothing since this week, maybe because I don't have classes that's why.

But, I have exams. And my Anatomy exam, the 16 pages. -__-

It's okay. :)

I miss posting here thouugh.
HAHA~ see you.

-Zz

Looking forward.

Sunday.

Tomorrow is another day. :D

Mondaaaays. Back to studies again. :)

Anatomy and Physiology. Organic Chemistry and Cell and Molecular Biology.

Trying. My ceiling.

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WEBIEEEEE~~~

MY PAST POSTS ARE DELETED. Accidentally :( </3

Why this blogger doesn't have archive so that I can republish my old posts :(

HUHUHU~ I miss my diary XD

I'm idiot. errrrrrr. :((((

About me.

ZOPIANO stand for Zariz (my name) + Soprano (my voice range) + Piano (my musical instrument)

Facts about ZOPIANO

Height: 163 cm
Weight: 119 lbs
Blood Type: A

- Born on August 28, 1996.
- I'm a Seventh-day Adventist Christian.
- I love singing and playing piano.
- I like to play basketball I was influenced by my Dad since I was a kid.
- I originally don't like cockroaches, worms, or any exotic animals, I'm afraid of it. But since, college I conquered my fear.
- I love ice cream, especially vanilla and cookies and cream.
- I sometimes teach piano lessons if I want to.
- I like eating vegetables, but I don't like eggplant, it makes me throw up.
- I love reading books, English novels or Filipino novels, especially dystopian genres.
- My ideal man is a musician. I'm nearly attracted to a guy who can play piano/guitar or any instrument well.
- I'm a yellow baby that's why after two days when I was born I stopped breastfeeding and used cow's milk while I'm left in nursery section.
- I don't have piercings, it is forbidden in our religion.
- I don't eat pork, shrimp, and crabs, it's also forbidden in our religion.
- I'm allergic to dust.
- When I was in 1st grade, I suffered from Primary Hand Complex, good thing that we'd treated it immediately.
- I love Mathematics and Music.
- I really love color green.
- I'm taking up Bachelor in Medical Laboratory Science. I want to be a BACTERIOLOGIST someday.

Random things agaaiin~

Hey webbie,

I'm just thinking about something but I don't know how to express it. HAHA.

What should I do now? :)

But, wah I know this is great. I feel relieved because of some things.
Thank God. This is my first time. XD

This is so random. LALALALALALA~ BLABLABLABLA~

Oyasumi~ XD

-Zariz