I remembered my last post here, (it was deleted though, crap me) I've been practicing my coldness at that time. I prefer to be alone. I never had intimate friends here. Even when I'm at AUP, I'm satisfied of being alone.
I could easily go to the cafeteria and eat alone. But here, I couldn't do that, they would label me as loner or different.
Maybe one of the reasons why as what I see in myself now, I'm diffident, or sometimes (frequently >_<) insecure. But I could conquer it, if I want to.
I have this current friend here that at first when I saw her, I feel intimidated I tried to approach her but afterwards, she approached my and initiate our closeness. My insecurity was gone. She is now my close friend. Or rather my only close friend, and I'm thankful for that. I directly saw how I conquered my weakness.
I hope not only to her. Because of some girls, I feel intimidated but I can't win to my fear because they have this "we-can't-be-close-aura". I don't know what to do.
I wan't to. I really want to.
